Confusing Feelings
Well, today was the orientation day for UniSA which simply means all the guys that I used to be crazy about last year came back to Taylor’s already. Argghhhhh! I simply can’t resist me myself looking at them and staring at them like I have never seen them before. I simply hope that they didn’t realise it but it’s kind of too obvious. Forget about these ex-tbf hot guys.
Now, I seriously must concentrate for my UWE studies. I must get a first class honours or die without getting it!!! If I have to tell the truth, then, I’ll say that I’m trying to be the best student! If I managed la but even to get first class honours, I’m so stressed up in the class. How am I supposed to manage my stress level?
Another thing that always disturbed me is this guy really like me or he is just fooling around me? Damn...the way he looked at me, I will be floating already on the air. He is the brainy. I meant brainy is very smart but yet he is too naughty. Always come and bully me only. Hehe, I’m not bad ler, I always bully him back. He always matches me with different people. Don’t he realised that he is the one that I want! But yet, I lied to him I have a boyfriend. Swt!
Studies...studies...studies....for the first time ever, I felt so stressed up...how can I be worried about studies when I always take easy about everything. Haiz....oh God! I seriously hate this particular subject and yet, I am still studying it...
And for God sake! How can all my friends said that I have changed a lot since I joined UWE??? They said I’m quieter, paying attention more to studies, chasing guys openly, trying to be more pretty, and etc. Holy shit!!! I’m not, k? All I’m trying to do is score high. That’s all. So, leave me alone with those comments. I don’t need it!
Finally, financial crisis is stressing me up more. Let me tell a truth. My family had no money already and because of this, my brother can’t go to tadika. Simply all because I’m a Taylor’s student. I don’t want to be a Taylorian but my dad wants me to be one. I have those guilty feelings now. Why didn’t I score high for my SPM? Why I didn’t score high for TBF? I’m too sad...
Wonder how can I have all these feelings at once? Because I’m a girl.... not a guy with feelings of the pea size!!!