I love you

What’s wrong with me?
You are the only one in my mind
Which making me not falling for others
And avoid guys also...

When I first saw you
I was under the spotlight
And somewhere a bell ring
That’s the moment!

I started to be your friend at first
Since you were my classmate also
That very first year of secondary school
That’s the moment!

Being your friend
We had so many wonderful moments
Doing it together
That’s the moment!

Sitting at your back
Poking you at the back was my hobby
Cutting off your hair was another hobby
Annoying you is my fav activity

Fulfilling what you wished for
Is my command
Lending you all my stuff
And even my precious sketch book

You have bring me
Into the world of Mandarin
Teaching all the bad words
Which is still fresh in my mind

Never have I been angry to you
That particular year
Coz you were my everything
Coz you were in my heart

Teasing each other
Copying during the exam
Being playful in the class
That’s the moment!

What’s the moment?
That’s the moment I realised
That I love you
And I wanted you to be mine

A year passed
We were still classmates
You found your love
Leaving me bleeding at a corner

That’s the year
I was having my full confidence
To make you be mine
But I can’t because someone has you already

Another year passed
I realised that
I’m getting far away from you
We nearly don’t know each other

Both of us sat for PMR
Unfortunately, name list was different that usual
You were sitting way too far from me
I wonder how nervous were you that time

I wished I could be sitting near you
I wished I can wish you good luck
But I was speechless that time...
Nevertheless, we scored straight As

In Form 4,
I loved you more
More than ever
More than my life

But you have just destroy it in a minute
Just by talking bad about me to others
That moment, I realised
Perhaps I have made a big mistake

I remember very well that moment
When you were against
The election for me to be class treasurer
You shouted "NO"

The same year
I don’t bother a thing about you
At the end, I heard that
You are gonna shift school

For 4 years
We were classmates
And now you going
Far away from me...

The following year
I was crazy
For not having you
In the class

For the first time
In secondary school life
I dont know what were you doing
And neither you

In the class, whateva I do
Embarassing moments
Proud moments
Not known to you

A year I don’t have you
To be looked while I am studying
I can’t hear your voice
And that make me feeling worse than ever

We sat for SPM at different school
When the result was out
I was crazy to know yours
How have you done

I was happy when I know your result
You didn’t do that bad
It was an okey type of result
And I know I have beaten you as well

Again, you have conquered my heart
I was filled with joy again
Then, I realised again that
I love you!

But sometimes, I wonder
How could I love you so much?
When you have hurt me so many times?
When you ignored me all this while?

We parted to diff colleges
Doing diff course
I was doing biz foundation while
You were doing Science foundation

Does these diff courses matters??
All what matter is
What our heart says
And my heart say is "I love you"

When I see you on9,
I will be jumping in happiness
But never have I start a conversation
Bcoz I was afraid

Now, sitting on my bed
Thinking what you gonna do next year
I know what I wanna do
Do BA (Hons) Acc & Finance in UWE

What will happen to me & you
When we grow up?
How we will look?
I wonder ~

Day after day, time passes away
I can’t get you off my mind
Nobody knows I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can’t find

But if I let you go
I will never know
What would my life would be
Holding you close to me

Night after night
I hear myself say
Why can’t this feeling just fade away
There’s no one like you

I’m too shy to ask
I’m too proud to lose
But sooner or later
I’ve gotta choose

Will I ever see
You smiling back to me?
Will I ever see
You talking to me?

Can I have the Form 1 moments back?
Can I have you as my friend again?
Can I be the one for you?
Can I not lose you?

Although you have never
Felt the same as me
All I could say is
I love you!

I could go on talking about you
Becoz I just love you
All what matters to me is you
And only you

People say you're a gay
People say you're sissy
People say you're handsome
People say you're annoying

But I don't care what people say
Bcoz I love you
For who you are
That's all!

My last post for 2008 dedicated to him

Happy Birthday Shavinaa

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Happy Birthday Shavinaa!!!

Enjoy the cake...teeheeeeeeeeee

nice balloons =.="

And lastly, I love you a lot!

Meh~'s Date....

Well, I am proud to introduce Cherry's date today...hehe....

Cherry, I am so sorry. Only he was interested with you....

Well, his characteristics are nerd, shy, wearing spec (so, be careful when kissing)....hehe

Don't worry, although he is a NERD, he is very ROMANTIC...

OK OR NOT???

29 December 2009

Walao, I am so damn happy man....teeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

when I saw my next year academic timetable, I realised that thr is class on 29th dec 2009...
I was like "OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG"

u know what??? this is gonna be my 1st time celebrating my birthday with friends...for the 1st time in my 19 years of life!!! so damn excited now....hehe

& 29th December 2009 = 20091229 ...hehe, so many "0", "2" & "9" and when all are added, it gives number "7"...isnt "7" is a magic number? isnt "7" is the powerful number? =)

PS: I might be wrong about the academic timetable, hope I am right!

19 years old...

Teeheee, yesterday, while having dinner, a funny conversation cames out....

Dad : you know age 19 years old, you need to be very responsible...bcoz next year, u'll be 19 years old...
I : what??? I havent even reach 18 yet...dont tell me all this now...
Dad : next year 2009, u r 19 years old
I : *mutering in a whisper* ya right, will be 18th on 29 dec, n then, after 3 days, I am 19 years old...
Dad : u said smtg? I heard u....you see, when I was 19 years old, I travel from Perak to KL to work...
Mom : *sudd cut in* ya ya, mine somemore worst, when I was 19, I was given the HARDEST responsible in the world...

Dad & I blurted out laughing loudly....

BCOZ WHEN MY MOM WAS 19th YEARS OLD, SHE MARRIED TO MY DAD

Sick of everything & everyone!

today is the day
I am sick of
everything & everyone
who I know...

y u think I am happy-go-lucky girl?
y u think I am smart?
y u think I am humourous?
y u think I am talkative?
I am neither!!!

sometimes, I wish I can
just blurt out the true self of me
but I cant
I just cant

Am I afraid?
Am I timid?
Am I scared?
Arent all have the same meaning?

I do want a fren
A true fren
who will be always there for
when I am at my best or at my worst

so far, I havent find yet
I wish I can find tat fren asap!
Coz I'm drowning now...
Can anyone save me???
NO!!!

All I asked for is a fren
But what have I got so far?
Traitor???
Betrayer???
Jealouser???
Haiz...

I juz wanna a fren who will be truthfull with me..........

Business Plan T.T

I am so damn dissapointed when think about it...my partner have jz quit from entering business plan...how nice of her is that??? I am way too disspointed...U know for months I am eager to join this up & she had destroy it up in a second jz like that...I am so dissapointed!!!

Ok fine! If she have no choice from quiting this up.......why cant she just tell me earlier than avoiding answering my questions??? at least I can ask someone else to team up with me...but she told me at the very last minute.....now, is she in the right side??? why cant she juz tell earlier??? instead of mountaining up my eager ness??? damn, I am so not gonna forgive her for this...

Ok fine! If we join, 50% we r not going to the next round....but then, can u imagine the time n moment we spent together for it??? much more cooler n more worth!!! but then, thats ine also, she destroy it for me...thx to her!!!!

I am so desperate now!!! I wanna join biz plan but she have destroy it up.........T.T

Sharmo

Well, peeps...this is Sharmo, Nemo's date!!! Thx to Cherry for the idea....well, I hope our date goes well....

Meh~ do you want me find a date for you??



PS: Cherry, I cant find a pix of 2 spec people kissing la...u try search n see...haiz, maybe after all, no 2 spec people kissing??? we can do experiment if u want...we 2 wear specs ma, come kiss n see...wakakakaka, choy choy!?!?!?!

BF, read this...hehe, I love you

When you break her heart - [ the pain NEVER really goes away ]
When she misses you - [ she's hurting inside ]
When she says its over - [ she STILL wants you to be hers ]
When she walks away from you mad - [ Follow her]
When she stare's at your mouth - [ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you - [ Grab her and don’t let go ]
When she starts cursing at you - [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she ignores you - [ Give her your attention]
When she pulls away - [ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst - [ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word ]
When you see her walking - [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared - [ Protect her ]
When she lays her head on your shoulder - [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steals your favorite hat - [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she teases you - [ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt - [ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she says that she likes you - [ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grabs at your hands - [ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]
When she bumps into you - [ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret - [ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [ don’t look away until she does ]
- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
-DON'T let her have the last word
-DON'T call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is soo much better
- Say you love her more than she could ever love you
- Argue that she is the best girl ever
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's OK don’t believe it, talk with her
- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her (sweetheart, reminding u tat my birthday coming soon........hehe)
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Tease her and let her tease you back
-Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid
- Give her the world
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she's important
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

Champion!

hehe, my dad is a runner ( as some of you all know )....

& this week, his initial plan was to run in Singapore but his friends dragged him to Penang's race....guess what??? his teamn is AGAIN the champion for the 4th time ...means for 4 years, they are champion in the Penang's race!!!!

Almost every week, my dad go for a race and most of the race, he will bring back a medal or a trophy or certificates or hampers.....................every single week man!!! my house are full of them but for my dad, its nothing...what matters to him is the satisfaction he gain from running!!! I am damn proud of him...

Last week, he have gotten a medal, certificate and a trophy from a race in the Ipoh!....

See see, every week also, he wins!!! I am not having shocked when he wins coz its a normal thing ald for him...when he come back to home after a race, I dont ask whether he wins or not....instead I'll be asking "number what this time?"...swt right?

what to do.........he always win!!! AND I'm proud to say tats my dad!!!

Mothers

People, guess what??? I not only have 1 mother but I have 4 mothers...

Wey, stop the way of your thinking!!!

My mothers refers to my aunties who are like my mother...they all raise me up as if I am their daughter...they give me the equal love to me as their daughter...they spend money for my education....they are my mothers!!! even, I call them "amma" also (amma=mother)

Well, they were my aunties initiall and called as periamma (aunty) but I call them amma since young...

Tell you a funniest thing...hehe, all these aunties are my mom's sisters...In the month of December, we celebrate Christmas together at Johore...thats where all my relatives will be coming too....means all my aunties & mom would be there...

When I shout "amma", you should see the number of responses....they all tot I am calling them =.=", u know.....n then, I have to rephrase my sentense by adding up their name in front it....very hard to call them "periamma"...all are my mothers.....hehe

When I want to call aunty, I call "amma" also,,,,,,thats the time my own mother will answer me.....when I want to call my own mother, I call "amma" also,,,,,,thats the time my aunty will answer my call....always terbalik one...dunno why also

Anyway, I love all my moms so much...all of them have a right on me myself....

In fact, I am not only going to take care of my own mother in future....I am going to take all my mothers in future....maybe, thats the reason I am spoilt a bit coz I have so many mothers to protect me from getting scolded from other mother....wakakaka, I am so lucky to have so many mothers....

Yippppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Cherry, ur picture!!!

Hey, nice smile, Cherry!!! Teeheee, peace peeps!

OMG! Cherry, pls dont kiss me with that lipstick, I dont want my face to be full with lipsticks...YEwwwwww!!!!

I know it is painful, Cherry! but pls tahan...wakakaka

See??? People will eat ur leg like this...muahahaha, luckily, I dont have a leg...hehe

People use ur horns to make tongkat...walao! Cherry, keep ur horns properly...if not, like this lor in future...hehe

This one I dont have a comment at all!!!

18th Birthday & Santa wish list...

Well, you people r lucky man...you all can just buy 1 present which represents birthday & Christmas present together...this is absolutely not fair!!! So, when you buy a 2 in 1 gift, make sure it is worth 2 times than 1 time...

Wish List:
1) lots of earrings
2) lots of story books especially "Twilight"
3) jigsaw puzzles (pls buy this one if can, my hobby, peeps!!! 1000/5000/10 000 pieces)
4) an elegant necklace
5) a jacket
6) u n only u (I wish I have you as my friend foreva in my life, ONCE A FRIEND ALWAYS A FRIEND)
7) more Friends
8) a continuing good family (like every year)
9) perfect health for everyone
10) will be updated soon

In pending list:
1) puzzle (Abigail)

Already have:
1) 1 set of bracelet + earrings (Ching Yee, Xiu Bao, Penny)
2) a GOLD ring (mom)
3) number 6 (Cherry)

*UPDATED ON 7th DEC.

Daily conversation *funny*

I was peacefully laying down at my parent's bed while day dreaming...nearly asleep too...sudd, mom appeared ...

Mom : Visha, what r u doing on the bed??? I asked u to fold the clothes, right??? U want to fold later or now? If now, I'll help u up...
I : (syok sendiri coz gt people help me) ok ok, now...

(while folding all the clothes, I have forgotten tat she is "suppose" to help fold all the clothes...mom busy cleaning this n that in the room)

Mom : (taking out a VCD) Visha, do you want to watch this movie...
I : No thanks. I nowadays dont watch movie
Mom : what??? u dont watch movie...OMG, my daughter change ald...Ah man, she touched my heart with those words...
I : (in my heart : wth is this man??? arrggghhhhh)

Mom : how to spell "border"?
I : b-o-r-d-e-r
Mom : ok, how to spell "cat" [paint in BM]
I : (smilling in my heart) c-a-t
Mom : what??? I tot tat is cat [kucing in BI]
I : both also same spelling la (while laughing out loudly)

Mom : ok, next week, we'll be going to go to Singapore to see your dad running for the race...
I : what? since when we go see dad running for the race??? last week also we didnt go Ipoh what!!!
Mom : that is Ipoh ma, this week is Singapore ma....diff place
I : swt...

I : (taking a black underwear) amma, this is mine, right?
Mom : looks like mine only...
I : it is mine la...u see got white thread coming out ald n somemore, this look smaller...
Mom : hey, mine also got white thread coming out...this is mine!
I : no no, this is mine (fold it & put at my place)
Mom : no wonder all my underwears lost every time...
I : haiz...

Mom : whr is d PTPTN slip???
I : I dunno, I gave u juz now...
Mom : well, I dunno whr it is as well...u go & buy again tomorrow...
I : (in my heart : damn, go to bank again??? haiz............after a few seconds, I saw the slip in her hand.............mom, can you stop tricking me???)

Mom : *singing*
I : can u stop it??? I hate all those songs you sing...damn old fashioned man!!!
Mom : * cont singing*
I : sttoooooppppppppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mom : you know what??? I am going to play this song in TV (VCD la itu...)
I : u better dont pls....
Mom : *smilling*

(I was folding the last piece of clothes)
Mom : ah! you ald fold finish ald , izzit? I juz tot of helping u out now
I : ammmaaaa, you tricked me again!!! Oh no, I ald folded every single cloth...ishhh...
Mom : hehe, and oh ya....this is my underwear (take away that underwear from me)
I : nooooooooooooo, it is mine!!!



* I seriously love my family a lot....all those moments will be fresh in my mind *

4 hours of pains + happiness

At home
- My mom told me tat we have to go to banks to open an account & buy a PTPTN loan pincode....

I : what??? PTPTN loan??? U serious ah???
MOM : yea...faster be ready, we have to go to bank now...
I : ok...

Lunch (shop)

*My Lunch *

1st Bank

I was blur at first...so noob about banks...then, I went to the counter and asked "can I buy the PTPTN pin code here??" and then only, I realised that I am so stupid in the bank...he answered "ya cik, tolong pergi ambil slip deposit"...me reply "ohkay"...but in my heart, I was like "cant he speak english???" after 10 minutes, my number called and I bought the pincode reluctantly...

2nd Bank

My reaction like " why r we here now??"
mom said: to open ur SPSN account?
I : maaaaaaaa, u know I am just 17++, how can I open an account under my name? U gotta be kidding me..
mom : can open under my name ma...
I : fine fine
(in the bank)
I : Ms, how to open a SPSN account?
Ms : Fill up the forms.... (pass a form to me)
I : ok, thanks
(on phone with dad)
I : ( started complaining) Appa, I cant open it unless it is under mom's name
Dad : Its ok ald, you no need to open it now...we open after your birthday
I : ok (but in my heart : next year la itu....)

Goldsmith
Hehe, this is the best part of the 4 hours...I have juz gotten myself another birthday present...

A GOLD RING WITH MY INTIAL ON IT WHICH COST RM390

Wow! Mom, thanks a lot!

Bookshop
I : why come here? I am in holiday now and sis also balik kampung ald...
Mom : do you still remember ur puzzle?
I : huh huh
Mom : go n buy a board for ur puzzle...dont u want it to be framed???
I : ok ok, going now
(in the bookshop)
I : amma, I couldnt find smtg for the frame...
Mom : looks like u gonna spend more for the board...
I : *confused*

Paint Shop
Mom wants to buy paint for the tiles...*funny*, my parents bought white tiles for the grey tiles wall....mistaken the colours...and now, they want to paint the tiles but she couldnt find the right colour, so, end up buying nothing!!!

Light Shop
Mom wanna see decoration lights for the living hall and after admiring so many beautifull lights, we end up buying nothing as well...

Photo Frame Shop
Mom : I go and check the board price & you stay here!
I : Fine, I am tired also...
(after a few minutes)
Mom : Hehe, the board cost RM15

I : what??? u r joking right... *worrying ald* (need to fork out my own bucks T.T)

Home again

Cherry, goat have horns la...

Jigsaw Puzzle

Peeps,

I have finish my jigsaw puzzle at last...well, it takes me 2 days with sleep, eating time, on9 time, chores time and rest time in between.

So, here is d complete puzzle -->

it's a capricorn picture (my horoscope)

PS: I took it with my laptop's webcam due to that duno whr is d camera...sry

December arrives

Jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
In a one horse open sleigh
Jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
In a one horse open sleigh

We wish you a Merry Christmas;
We wish you a Merry Christmas;
We wish you a Merry Christmas
and a Happy New Year.

Peeps, Christmas is coming...yea, u heard me right! yes yes! I better start on with my Santa list...hoho everyone!

December at last...the month that I love the most...the festive month : sis's, grandma, cousinS, my birthday & Christmas and then.....NEW YEAR 2009

Ah, of course sis n bro get their yearly RM50 from dad's company due to their eligible age...ish! not fair to me...sobs sobs...bt then, anyway, at least my dad will give me that RM50...so, no worries...hehe

Oh my, I am so damn excited now for Christmas...thr goes the Christmas tree of my house...whr is d angel? ah, the is she...put it on top, pls... wow, look fanstantic!

HoHo everyone.....

Cheong Choon Yee, Han Wan Yin & Visha Menon

Lol, while cleaning up my dressing desk...I found a piece of paper. Guess what??? It is an ancient letter written by 3 of us... The situation occured in Form 2 at a Science Lab (2004)...here goes the letter...

Cheong Choon Yee
Han Wan Yin
Visha Menon

Could we have a chat?
Yes, you want to talk about wat? ^^
Talk about future plans. You start first :p
Eh...I dont know ah ^^
How yr dream guy look?
Handsome, tall, active, humour, don't rokok, periang....
Then, ....
Don't know lah ^^
Eh, y dun talk with me lah...I'm angry :@
Talkla Wan Yin :p
talk? so, use ur mouth talk la...y u write?!!?
Sorry...WRITE :@
Copy cat!!?!!
Hey, what are you talking about? ^^ I want to know! ^^
Talking about future life. Be a lawyer (me) and have about 4 children (it means I'll marry in future)...have to marry lo. I'm eldest in my family.
Oh..icic! hey...u want to have 4 children ah, wah!...I want 2 have 2 enough .. 1 girl & 1 boy...........in future! ^^
Wow! u want to have 4 children with CY? oh, congratulations! when u r married, please tell me....ok? what are thier names? tell us....
Did I say I'm going to marry CY? no!!! Of course I'm a Hindu and I'll marry a Hindu guy which is my parent's choice!!! CY is my admire boy. That's all. How about yours, Wan Yin?
Hey, I thought your husband in future is CY ^^, mm... =( (kecewa)
Did I say so? :@
em...y r u so in love and admire CY so much? haiz...ur husband must be him, dun care about ur parent's choice...
I care about my parent's. I do not love CY, only admire. Who said that I love CY :@
I say (choon yee)! Don't angry lah. I know ur mouth say admire, but your heart say u love CY....I know geh....he hey ^^ !
I agree....r u feel disappointed???? coz CY not at here....
No. I'm happy. I think he is with "Dennis". (good choice)
I think you better than "Dennis", coz you r speacial....right?!!!!?
I know you & Dennied like or love CY but I think you love CY so much becoz you always look at CY at class! He hey ^^
Not me. He!!! Ask Wan Yin if u don't believe me!!!
I know you love CY very much, you no need 'tak mengaku' lah! Hope u & CY can love each other very much! ^^...waiting for ur invitation...^^ he hey! ^^
ask me what?!!! u perasan only ... but u always looking at him....can;t he just looking at Amani or Amalina....
Ok. I surrounder. Wan Yin, u r going to get a slap!

Well, thats the end of our letter writting to each other...silly 3 Form 2 girls....hehe
PS: CY is Choon Yoong

missing him ....

haiz, I have seriously no idea...whats wrong with me??? it is only 2 days didnt see him and I'm in dilemma ald...I swear I miss him a lot although I do ignore him a lot at college...

My friend told me that girls act opposite than what they think...take me as an example : I love him a lot but I ignore him a lot...u know y??? coz by ignoring, that person will care about u more...that's girl's philosophy...so guys, take note of this again : girls act opposite than what they think

what is wrong with me?

and people, pls stop asking who is that person! I am not going to tell you all coz my love life is non of ur business...it only concern me myself n him...friends & him are 2 diff matters and I would like not to join both group...

Oh ya, pls stop asking me whether I like him or not? I believe it doesnt matters to u, right? I like him or not is my own personal feelings...I will say straight to that person if he asked me, I dont need his friends to investigate me...duh, be a man! hehe...sudd, I am weird ald...

So, pls ask me by u urself...I am not going to eat u or what!!!

But anyway, I started to miss him a lot...haiz...

PS: I might be or not talking about 2 guys at the same time...so, it might be confusing...figure out urself...it is one of d girls' complicated feeling...